knic84's public diary

This thing hasn't been updated in quite some time, now has it? My holiday blogging hiatus can be considered over as of now, as excessive free time and the accompanying boredom more than allow for updates. Read: gawd I'm bored. Though I've been keeping surprisingly busy with my social circles and fun in general, I've got a bit of an ambition vacuum forming - idling around like I've been is breeding restlessness, particularly when I know I could've had a job for the coming semester, starting in about a week (for those of us in college that is. A few friends will be going back to school in just a couple more days). Some half-hearted job searching effort on my part and a couple more fruitless interviews later, this co-op term goes with the last like peas and carrots. I'll stop referencing the script to Forrest Gump now before I get started thinking about my Ferrero Rocher Christmas chocolate.

So, with little to do, I've been trying to do something valuable. I wrote a review for Disgaea which I've submitted to RPGFan as well as having got posted on Amped Gaming, my boyfriend's budding site on all things gaming. Hee, boyfriend. It still sounds a little unbelievable in the posessive form. I've been trying my hand, rather lazily mind you, at remixing something for OCRemix, with results to match my efforts. Mostly, I guess I'd like something to occupy myself as well as be a successful project someone, somewhere might appreciate.

Maybe I should write a book. All I need is an idea, some planning, and some motivation, the last of those now all gone due to listing what I'd need to do.

If I can't do that mind you, I can try to round up nostalgic little trinkets to remind me of my life's worth. Which I started on today, at Cinema 1 in White Oaks Mall. I hadn't thought I would find the elusive prize for sale anywhere, and when it was so suddenly placed before me, I couldn't help but seize the opportunity. The sales associate guy, about my age and with abouding cool dude bravado, evidently thought I was a few bricks short of a load when I asked him if they had a Claymation Christmas special. A hallmark of a holiday special from my youth that was yanked from the airwaves for some unknown but reproachable reason, all I could remember about it was that it featured the California Raisins and just blew most anything else out of the water around Christmastime. That said, I left the mall a little richer in belated holiday spirit, but in reality 40 dollars poorer with the DVD. When asked at the counter if it was a gift or for myself, a legitimate question by all counts but one that put me in a self-conscious, defensive position of my confidence-lacking ego, I gave the honest answer: It's for nostalgia. For myself.

It's not quite the same as back then, but that trickle of holiday spirit it still holds should come in handy next year, whilst I surround myself with even more reminders of yuletide seasons past to try to revive some of that faint festive cheer. I hope all had a Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, and a Happy New Year.

knic84 strode off into the sunset at 8:04 PM.